you can do nothing for me

i don't know what to do anymore.
i am not happy, i am nothing.
just so tired of waiting for someone who needs me
and my attention
so that i could forget myself for a minute.

i just feel kinda tired of life.
no one hears my scream.
i just need someone who is listening
and i need someone i can listen to.

unimportant and annoying conversations
every day, every night, every time
sometimes i just want to scream it all out
louder than i ever screamed anything out.

"YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME"

and all i really want, and all i really need
is someone who knows every little secret and every little piece of my life
and who is interested in saving me out of my own tragedy.

but in fact there is nobody who wants to know anything.
because i never told anything about the silence, the pain, the emptiness inside of my body and my heart.
i dont know where to go now.
do i want to feel pain again? do i want to hurt myself again?

"I never saw what you saw in me"
no, i never did.
i am so sorry.
but i will never be happy.